I abandoned tumblr long ago but came back through tonight for a visit. Since I was here last so much has happened and yet not much tangible to show for it. A couple of new publishing credits to my name. A few new risks taken. Several fears faced and new ones waltzing in to fill the empty space left by those now conquered. Mostly more questions and ideas and doubts.
I’m in that place in life…that moment…when you know what you want. And you want it so much that you can’t do anything else without being followed by this tangible knowing that you want it. All the time…like your heartbeat…it is there. And you could of had it…back when you didn’t know it was what you wanted. And now that you know it is THE thing…it might be too late. And if it is too late…what do you do? And if it turns out that you are wrong…it’s not too late…what do you do? And what the hell do you do in the interim; the waiting to learn if it is or isn’t still a possibility for you?
Either way…it is going to consume me I think.
